chaoticXwriter

Ok, well, I created this account a long time ago but I'm using it now.
I'm also on Quizilla [ xXbluexsilverxrockXx] and MySpace, and I made my own website. www.musiclifewriting.weebly.com
I am, VERY different.
People say I'm a. . .
Poser, [nope]
Emo, [yes]
Rocker,[yes]
Girly Girl [WTF!!! SOOO NOT TRUE BY THE WAY]
Prep,[f- no]
Rebel,[[HELL YEAH!!!]]
Quiet,[yes]
Loner,[yes]
and WEIRD. [FUDGE YEAH!!!]
I am not any of those things because I HATE labels, and hate is a strong word. I do listen to rock, metal, screamo, alternative, but that doesn't make me emo or rocker or whatever!!!
I'm the opposite of a girly girl or a prep because I don't mind getting down and dirty, and I relate better to guys than girls. Plus cliques are so cliche these days.
Rebel yes I am, I speak my mind and tell people off when they should be told off. I mean come on! I am violent, my friend, who is emo, calls me Vi cause those are the first sounds in the word violent.
Everyone thinks I'm a nerd, but I prefer geek/ [Sounds better XD] and yes I do inflict self pain!!! Not by cutting, well sometimes, but by beating myself up emotionally and physically.
I don't give a damn about what people think of me.
I'm an Atheist, meaning I don't belive in God. I belive in higher power, but why does it have to be a man. Women give birth to life every single day, so why can't they give birth to the world?

I think differently from other, but I am nice to those who deserve it. I have MAJOR trust issues and I don't keep friends easily. I don't do anything to them but they backstab me because they think since I'm trusting and loyal to all of my friends, I'l stick with them.

Wrong. If you do something bad to me and think I won't bite back, you need to learn something about me.

I believe in getting even. An eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth. I maybe violent but people think I'm all talk. Hahaha, you should see the people who've messed with me.

My home life is messed up because my parents divorced and tried to keep it away from me but I knew already cause my mom was dumb enough to give me a card of a divorce lawyer and tell me to program it into her phone. My dad has a six month old baby boy with a woman who's half his age.
Mom's six months pregnant, [she got pregnant when my dad's child was born. weird.] She has a douchbag as a boyfriend and well yeah. I'm going to move in with my dad probably when she gives birth.

My sisters aren't home for most of the day so that's good. They like teasing me a lot and it's not in a fun way.

I love the colors Blue, Silver, Black, and clear if that's a color.
And even though I listen to the "darker side of music" metal, screamo, alternative, etc, i listen to the blues, soul, opera [don't make fun of me for it!!!] and what not.
Some basic facts.
I smile everyday from letting the people see I'm screaming on the inside.
I know nothing lasts for a long period of time and forever doesn't exist.
Don't believe what people see you as.
Trust no one but yourself, and be loyal to yourself.
Love what you do, and do what you love.
Life is a joke, so laugh about it.
You can't change the past, but you can change the future.

And my motto, which I posted on my website.

Music equals life, life equals writing, which equals ME.

Oh, and i love reading.
Of course like most people I love the Twilight series about Stephanie Meyer, but I prefer The Host, the book she wrote after Eclipse but before Breaking Dawn
I love Jackie Collins!!! Her books refelct reality and have some drama and mystery in them about the rich and famous.
Stephen King is another of my favorite authors, his books aren't scray like some people think, just interesting and mysterious.
I love James Frey, his books A Million Little Peices and My Friend Leonard are so emotional and are based on reality. I swear I cried and that's a lot cause I never cry.
The Hunger Games Series are freaking awesome!!!! By Suzanne Collins.
I also love Joanne Fluke's mystery series [mainly cause tehy're named after deserts!]
Sally Warners book SORT OF FOREVER is fucking tear worthy. It's so sad!!!
John Manning is cool too if you like something to do with religion and the anitchrist.
I love Anne Rice and Bram Stroker and the duo of P.C. and Kristin Cast of the House of Night Series.
Also Charlain Harris' Dead Until Dark and the books that follow after that.
I listen to almost every band you can think of. Some of them are alternative and techno but the others are hardcore metal and crap like that.

If you look at the picture on here, it's the yin and yang symbol. Yin being darkness and matter, while Yang is light and air. The dragon is Yin and the tiger is Yang.

And Guess What??? I'm a dark Yin dragon!!!

Here are the lyrics for my favorite song by my favorite band.
YOU ECLIPSED BY ME -=- by ATREYU!!!!
I began my ascent at minus zero
You made so sure of that
You tried to keep me down here
Your complacency has been your downfall
Nobody made you king of the world
And now I'm here to dethrone
So kiss the ring motherfucker
It's my time, my time to shine
Grasping for the straws as they fall
Maybe you can make a splint for your broken ego
For your broken ego

And I say thank you for the scars
With the guilt and the pain
Every tear I've never cried
Has sealed your fucking fate
Did you take me for, a fool
Or were you just too blind to see
That every effort made has failed
And there is no destroying me

Hate can be a positive emotion
When it forces you to better yourself
You built me, constructed my desire
Perfected my hatred
Now I'm driven to be ten times better than you think you are
Ten times better than you think you are
Piece by piece I've built my walls
And burned my bridges down
That lead back to people like you
So full of malice, so full of scorn
You tried your best to crush my spirit
You tried to steal my soul
You pushed my back against the wall
And I broke it down

I will not be broken
Though I am the one that bleeds
I will not be broken
I am the one
(x3)

And I say thank you for the scars
With the guilt and the pain
Every tear I've never cried
Has sealed your fucking fate
Did you take me for, a fool
Or were you just too blind to see
That every effort made has failed
And there is no destroying me
There is no destroying me
No there is no destroying me

So basically,
I am an emo tomboy with a violent rebel attitude who doesn't give a damn what people think about me and their opinions on me.

It's Either DEATH. . .or GLORY!!! So FIGHT For It!!!