druscilla; and blue.
Sometimes we reach what's realest
by making believe.
by making believe.
- Name
- Druscilla Ryan
- Age
- 21
- Gender
- Female
- Location
- Looking for the moon.
- Joined date
- December 24th, 2006
—looking-glass insects—
Stories
I'm Sorry.
Latest update: Chapter 1 on June 27th, 2008Baby in the Closet
Latest update: Chapter 2 on June 22nd, 2008What Are You Wearing?
Latest update: Chapter 1 on June 21st, 2008I Wear My Heart Under My Sleeve
Latest update: Chapter 1 on June 20th, 2008sibba.com
Latest update: Chapter 1 on June 16th, 2008A Galaxy's Birthday.
Latest update: Chapter 1 on June 13th, 2008Sick
Latest update: Chapter 1 on June 13th, 2008We are Galaxies.
Latest update: Chapter 1 on June 8th, 2008Watching Kristen
Latest update: Chapter 1 on May 16th, 2008Finding Neverland.
Latest update: Chapter 1 on May 7th, 2008Too Young Eyes
Latest update: Chapter 1 on May 6th, 2008Infinity on a Rooftop.
Latest update: Chapter 1 on May 6th, 2008The Kids With The Secrets
Latest update: Chapter 2 on May 5th, 2008To the Bones
Latest update: Chapter 5 on May 2nd, 2008The Wonderland Chronicles
Latest update: Chapter 2 on May 1st, 2008The Birthday Dance
Latest update: Chapter 1 on April 29th, 2008The Drip Drip Drop.
Latest update: Chapter 1 on April 23rd, 2008Billie Jo
Latest update: Chapter 9 on April 23rd, 2008The Tire Swing
Latest update: Chapter 1 on April 22nd, 2008Seven words to break a heart.
Latest update: Chapter 15 on April 7th, 2008The Blood on the Kitchen Floor
Latest update: Chapter 1 on April 4th, 2008Manic
Latest update: Chapter 1 on March 27th, 2008Clinical
Latest update: Chapter 1 on March 26th, 2008A World of Fiction
Latest update: Chapter 4 on March 20th, 2008Scratch That Last.
Latest update: Chapter 1 on March 19th, 2008Muze, Daddy
Latest update: Chapter 3 on March 14th, 2008Conversations in Dreamworld
Latest update: Chapter 5 on March 11th, 2008Melodramatic Sugar Addict
Latest update: Chapter 1 on March 11th, 2008The White Lie.
Latest update: Chapter 1 on March 10th, 2008After He Unlocked the Door
Latest update: Chapter 1 on March 1st, 2008
—the garden of live flowers—
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As long as you have a reason, you can write however the fuck you want.
I respect the editors and the job they do.
I will not, however, change my stories.
I have a reason that I write that way and if my stories are taken down from the list, I trust my readers will find them anyway.
Thank you<333
____________
After a fall such as this,
____I shall think nothing of tumbling downstairs!
__________________________________________mad as a hatter, thin as a dime.
_____________________go ask alice when she's 10 feet tall.
_______________________________________If you drink much from a bottle marked 'poison' it is
_________________________________________almost certain to disagree with you, sooner or later.
______when logic & proportion have fallen sloppy dead.
___________________________________They're dreadfully fond of beheading people here;
_____________________________________the great wonder is, that there's any one left alive!
_________'Somehow it seems to fill my head with ideas--only
____________I don't exactly know what they are!'
_______________________________________________Everything's got a moral, if only you can find it.
__________
_________
______
___I'M SICK OF SEARCHING FOR ENDINGS.
_______I WANT TO FIND BEGINNINGS.
____
___________________________________________
'In that direction,' the Cat said, waving its right paw round, 'lives a Hatter: and in that direction,' waving the other paw, 'lives a March Hare. Visit either you like: they're both mad.'
'But I don't want to go among mad people,' Alice remarked.
'Oh, you can't help that,' said the Cat: 'we're all mad here. I'm mad. You're mad.'
'How do you know I'm mad?' said Alice
'You must be' said the Cat 'or you wouldn't have come here'.
___________________________
_____________The Queen turned crimson with fury, and, after glaring at her for a moment
_____________like a wild beast, screamed 'Off with her head! Off—'
________________'Nonsense!' said Alice, very loudly and decidedly, and the Queen was silent.
________________
"a very precise amount of eyeliner"
_______________________________________________“They picked me.” he whispered. “They knew me."
__________I found your anime porn collection...
______________________________________________"I believe in you."
“If I tried running through it, Brendon,” Ryan asks,
____________“do you think I’d keep going after it broke?”
__________________________________________"Isn't he pretty, Dru?" Ryan asked, face lighting up. "Isn't he?"
___________There were dark circles under his bloodshot eyes.
___________________________Look me in my eyes, you fucking bastard.
___He fell asleep in my bed
_______with me and when I woke
_________up the next morning he was
___________sitting on the window seat.
_____________________________________________You have fucking raindrops for eyes.
____________________________It’s fucking sadistic what I put myself through.
___________"I want to be a bird."
__________________________________________________"We're trying to help her find Wonderland."
___________________As the bluebird flies and the clock strikes nine
___________________We will find, we will find, it is time, it is time.
___________________As the blackbird cries and the clock strikes nine
___________________We will find, we will find, it is time, it is time
___________________To die, to die.
_________
Screams. Sticky bloody footprints. 911. Crying. Choking breaths.
_____________________________________________________"The stars are falling. I’m going to burn up."
____All while I watched the shadows dance on the ceiling.
_______________________________________________Ryan laughed, leaning over the edge of the
________________________________________________________balcony, only one foot on the ground.
______We’re liars, but when you lie with a pen it’s acceptable.
___________________________________I stared at myself wondering why doesn’t it hurt?
______________________Ryan stepped into the room, arms pulled against his chest, fists balled under his chin.
_____Our faces were mirrors of opposites.
___________________________It’s nothing worth living for, wasted dreams and pretend lovers.
___________It’s hotel rooms and empty tour buses and broom closets with locks.
____________________________________________________________She didn’t have months.
___This was the Dru his Dru had chosen to hazard in hopes of the right combination of pills.
______________________________Everything in your world can mirror something in her world.
_____________You use your hands to create art, not take life.
________________________________He printed Ana’s picture out and hid it in his notebook.
____________
Either way, as I said it before, I don't think that Dru's SIs were just sex. Actually I don't even think the main character was the real Dru, it would be naive to think it was. It was everyone because it just felt real, honest really. Because actually, they weren't SI. They were a weird kind of non-fiction. They were written as fact not fiction. They were auto-biographies. Like Kafka's work, or Burroughs', or even Fitzgerald was autobiographic in The Beautiful and The Damned. Those are just the literary examples that come to mind. Whatever. I just wanted to explain my statement regarding those stories. They feel honest and universal, I can put myself in her shoes and be okay. I can understand, I see that it's all true not just a sick fantasy, not just a teen daydream.
-sueno?
________________
_____________________Clinical
______________________Manic
________________________Sick
__________________________________
_______
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
I will love you until the day I die.
-
Dear Maggie, Michael, Frankie, & Gabe;
I am so sorry.
But I will love you even if you don't exist.
And I will never completely give up.
- Mommy
As long as you have a reason, you can write however the fuck you want.
I respect the editors and the job they do.
I will not, however, change my stories.
I have a reason that I write that way and if my stories are taken down from the list, I trust my readers will find them anyway.
Thank you<333
____________
After a fall such as this,
____I shall think nothing of tumbling downstairs!
__________________________________________mad as a hatter, thin as a dime.
_____________________go ask alice when she's 10 feet tall.
_______________________________________If you drink much from a bottle marked 'poison' it is
_________________________________________almost certain to disagree with you, sooner or later.
______when logic & proportion have fallen sloppy dead.
___________________________________They're dreadfully fond of beheading people here;
_____________________________________the great wonder is, that there's any one left alive!
_________'Somehow it seems to fill my head with ideas--only
____________I don't exactly know what they are!'
_______________________________________________Everything's got a moral, if only you can find it.
__________
_________
______
___I'M SICK OF SEARCHING FOR ENDINGS.
_______I WANT TO FIND BEGINNINGS.
____
___________________________________________
'In that direction,' the Cat said, waving its right paw round, 'lives a Hatter: and in that direction,' waving the other paw, 'lives a March Hare. Visit either you like: they're both mad.'
'But I don't want to go among mad people,' Alice remarked.
'Oh, you can't help that,' said the Cat: 'we're all mad here. I'm mad. You're mad.'
'How do you know I'm mad?' said Alice
'You must be' said the Cat 'or you wouldn't have come here'.
___________________________
_____________The Queen turned crimson with fury, and, after glaring at her for a moment
_____________like a wild beast, screamed 'Off with her head! Off—'
________________'Nonsense!' said Alice, very loudly and decidedly, and the Queen was silent.
________________
"a very precise amount of eyeliner"
_______________________________________________“They picked me.” he whispered. “They knew me."
__________I found your anime porn collection...
______________________________________________"I believe in you."
“If I tried running through it, Brendon,” Ryan asks,
____________“do you think I’d keep going after it broke?”
__________________________________________"Isn't he pretty, Dru?" Ryan asked, face lighting up. "Isn't he?"
___________There were dark circles under his bloodshot eyes.
___________________________Look me in my eyes, you fucking bastard.
___He fell asleep in my bed
_______with me and when I woke
_________up the next morning he was
___________sitting on the window seat.
_____________________________________________You have fucking raindrops for eyes.
____________________________It’s fucking sadistic what I put myself through.
___________"I want to be a bird."
__________________________________________________"We're trying to help her find Wonderland."
___________________As the bluebird flies and the clock strikes nine
___________________We will find, we will find, it is time, it is time.
___________________As the blackbird cries and the clock strikes nine
___________________We will find, we will find, it is time, it is time
___________________To die, to die.
_________
Screams. Sticky bloody footprints. 911. Crying. Choking breaths.
_____________________________________________________"The stars are falling. I’m going to burn up."
____All while I watched the shadows dance on the ceiling.
_______________________________________________Ryan laughed, leaning over the edge of the
________________________________________________________balcony, only one foot on the ground.
______We’re liars, but when you lie with a pen it’s acceptable.
___________________________________I stared at myself wondering why doesn’t it hurt?
______________________Ryan stepped into the room, arms pulled against his chest, fists balled under his chin.
_____Our faces were mirrors of opposites.
___________________________It’s nothing worth living for, wasted dreams and pretend lovers.
___________It’s hotel rooms and empty tour buses and broom closets with locks.
____________________________________________________________She didn’t have months.
___This was the Dru his Dru had chosen to hazard in hopes of the right combination of pills.
______________________________Everything in your world can mirror something in her world.
_____________You use your hands to create art, not take life.
________________________________He printed Ana’s picture out and hid it in his notebook.
____________
Either way, as I said it before, I don't think that Dru's SIs were just sex. Actually I don't even think the main character was the real Dru, it would be naive to think it was. It was everyone because it just felt real, honest really. Because actually, they weren't SI. They were a weird kind of non-fiction. They were written as fact not fiction. They were auto-biographies. Like Kafka's work, or Burroughs', or even Fitzgerald was autobiographic in The Beautiful and The Damned. Those are just the literary examples that come to mind. Whatever. I just wanted to explain my statement regarding those stories. They feel honest and universal, I can put myself in her shoes and be okay. I can understand, I see that it's all true not just a sick fantasy, not just a teen daydream.
-sueno?
________________
_____________________Clinical
______________________Manic
________________________Sick
__________________________________
_______
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
I will love you until the day I die.
-
Dear Maggie, Michael, Frankie, & Gabe;
I am so sorry.
But I will love you even if you don't exist.
And I will never completely give up.
- Mommy
'But what did the Dormouse say?' one of the jury asked.
'That I can't remember,' said the Hatter.