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Carlyumz

Carlyumz
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Carly
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20
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Great Britain (UK)
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March 27th, 2007

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________________________ CARLYUMZ;
_________________A Life Full Of Passion

Update: I can only apologise for just up and leaving mibba. University, the biggest heartbreak of my life, moving away, giving up, passing my first year, finding my soul mate, passing my second year, moving into my new home. I'm 20 now and feel more complete than I ever had. I'm ashamed to say that I simply had no time and just lost touch of coming on here. I'm not sure if I will ever finish my story, it would feel so strange to go back to it but I appreciate every kind word that anyone ever wrote about my stories, I'd like to think that I will finish it, I think I owe it to everyone. I'd like to do that for you all. If it wouldn't have been for all the praise and critiques and compliments and general friendships I made on here I would never have had the confidence to pursue a career in writing. I'm going into my final year of studying journalism at university and currently writing my first novel and have film scripts in the process to. I'm simply not eloquent enough to articulate my sincerest gratitude to everyone who bothered to type a few kind words to me, the friendships, fans and fellow authors on here have never left me.

I may start posting a new story I'm currently writing at the moment about Harley Quinn and The Joker, it's pretty dark and brutal and I'm looking to turn it into a film script in the future. I know the feedback from you all would help me so much, but mainly I just want to come on here and attempt to make up to everyone who I disappeared on. I am truly sorry, I hope you've all been well, I hope that you are all happy and I hope I'll be able to come on here more and more.

I've also set up and co-edit and produce an independent rock music fanzine called FANCORE Fanzine. I update the website daily-ish with music news etc aswell as posting the actual fanzine as a PDF file. For all rock music fans, oh and I'm looking for writers too :) www.fancore.wordpress.com

Carly
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There are only three things you really need to know about me, not my eye colour or who i'm friends with; just what makes me who i am, what makes mefly and soar.

Number One; Writing
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Careers don't always catergorise who a person is, i mean an accountant is more than all numbers and figures. But for me writing is responsible for a huge portion of who i am; it's engraved somewhere deep inside me, it's what runs through my veins.
It's my life in so many respects; what i'm dedicating three years of University towards achieveing- not stars or lights; i simply want my name in print.
Ever since i was young i had a story to tell, don't ever let them tell you that it's just childhood dreams because they're wrong.

A Journalist, a story-teller- it's my therapy, my hobby, my job, my love.

My real passion in writing is stories, tragic, hopeless love stories are an indulgence, Frerard's and fanfictions are responsible for so many delayed essays. They're a guilty pleasure, but a beautiful pleasure all the same.

My Frerards on Mibba

Number Two; Music
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Oh How Cliche. Almost everyone will say that music is a huge part of their lives, that it changed them, saved them. I see no wrong in this whatsoever, a generation who live and breathe music is something beautiful, something to be treasured.

As with mere words, a few notes can create this unbelievable change within me, a few words, a drumbeat, the buzz of a guitar- these are my drugs. Music gives me something to believe in, somewhere to go, someone to confide in, always there in my darkest hours, always smiling with me in my best.
Music to me is never just the background, never just sound- done well it can be a masterpiece, a song can stay with you for the whole of your lives, like a friend, a lover. A song can bring you back to the worst and best times of your life, a song can set you free and let you dream and dance and soar. A song can change your life; so can a band.

And They Did;
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________________My Chemical Romance;
Life Savers?
No, not quite. I never needed saving, it was never some epiphany with me, one moment were my life seemed to make sense, were i was given a purpose.

It started in 2004, i was far too young to need saving back then. A song was just a song, albeit a very catchy one. I had no idea what the people flashing on the screen would ever mean to me, back then they were just nameless faces, more MTV cookie-cutter stars.

____________________ I was so fucking wrong.

Ignorance is the biggest killer. It didn't take me long to see that this wasn't just another band; how is it that somebody could write songs with such meaning, that created such empathy within me, that just seemed to encompass everything that I was feeling, everything that I was?
This was something new, this was something incredible.

Call me obsessed, I don’t care- the only thing I know is that listening to their music gave me hope, made me feel like it’s okay to be fucked up, that it’s okay to feel worthless sometimes and that most importantly that I’m not alone. I can cry, laugh, scream, dance to these songs, I can find hope and inspiration in some; I can find comfort and acceptance in others. I don’t always find the answers but I know they’re keeping me alive until I find the solution for myself.
Am i just another typical MCR fan? Just another one that puts them on that pedestal as super-humans?

No, i know they're human and that's what inspires me, that's what fucking blows me away. Sometimes i forget that they're just a bunch of men who have overcome so so much, who have pushed past every obstacle, everything that would make others just give up and managed to save lives and enrich them in the process.
It isn't a cheat that MCR have this success, have this admiration, have this devotion from thousands, millions of people. I resent that so many ridicule them on having this success, calling it all just hype and despise anyone who would want to take that away from a group of people that have worked so damn hard for it. Yes MCR right now are one of the biggest bands pretty much everywhere, but this surely just demonstrates that people like what they're hearing and that there are so many people on the planet that can understand the message and relate to it.
It just shows how songs are never songs, how people are never people, they can change your life, they can give you something to believe in.

One of the best feelings in the world is standing in the middle of thousands of people, all eyes focused to the five people in front of you, every one of us screaming back the same words with the same devotion. Because we all belong there, every single one of us.
Watching them on stage is one of the best experiences of my life because i could see just how they were playing with every single thing that they had, giving the most energy that they could and truly immersing themselves in the music. They are a living, breathing, screaming, jumping, dancing, chaotic mess but underlying the sheer velocity of the performances is always undoubted affection; love for the people on the stage, love for the music and their love for every single person standing before them. They play with all of their hearts, so i challenge any person to go and watch them and then claim that they don't deserve the success or they don't mean it. Watch them pour their hearts out and it's impossible not to walk out completely blown away.
I don't owe them my life, i owe them my heart.They've fucking earned it.

Number Three; Special People
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I could have everything, the writing and the music but without anyone to share this with it'd be pointless.
I've waited my whole life for this, to have people i care about and who care about me...such a simple thing, one of the most precious, one of the hardest to find.
I said I would get better with time, two years since I wrote this I'm going into my final year of university, I've been with my partner for over a year and we're living together. He completes me, I understand what a relationship is supposed to be and that happiness is true and beautiful with blue eyes and arms to scoop me up and squeeze all bad thoughts away. I never thought I'd ever feel complete again, I feel more whole than I ever have been before. I feel like I belong. My ex-partner who broke my heart is currently alone having pushed his then girlfriend away, he said his biggest mistake in life is how he treated me.
Thank you to everyone who gave my kind words during my darkest period, you were right, karma is at work :)

My family are my everything, they give me support, they give me a lifeline. I know they'd accept anything i decided to do, they believe in me and i know that without them i'd never be were i was today- only a small apartment and a small life but it's all mine. The dreams are all due to them.

I could talk and talk and talk, amazing for someone classed as being so anti-social. My real-life and my mibba/internet friends alike- i love them all, they're all there for me and i value them for that.

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I'm not ashamed to say that i may be slightly in too deep with this man; and it's not the whole 'gawd Frankie is hot' type thing (because obviously he is, just look at him- one of the sexiest things on the planet).
I feel this sort of affection about all of the band but Frankie this year has become something else to me, it's admiration, he's a hero to me and something i aspire to be, both in achieving my dreams and in becoming the person that he is. If i could hold a fraction of the passion and talent that he has then i'd finally be content.
Everyone else doesn't really stand a chance; becuase i've placed him far too highly in my heart for him to ever be brought down.

So that's probably far more than anyone could possibly want to know,
Carly- obsessed with a few beautiful boys, loves too much, writes her little heart out.
And yet there's so much more;You're Something Beautiful; A Contradiction
**(pseudo)intellect student with big dreams, a big heart, flawed, sensitive, ambitious, creative, friendly seeks someone just to talk to about anything and everything.
Eventhough i don't have as much time as i'd really like my main passion is still talking to people; i've met so many wonderful people on websites like this through a shared love of writing and good music, people that i otherwise would never have ended up speaking to at stupid hours in the morning.
So take the time to comment, pm, read a story or send a friend request- either on here or on myspace/facebook; because you can never have too many friends can you?