The Beauty's Beast

Beauty and My Beast

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Dear World,

"I'm Joey. I'm sixteen years old, and what a vivid sixteen years those have been. I've fixed and broken, built and destroyed, found and lost, filled and drained, loved and hated. I've tried new things only to hate them, and I've opted out on much only to regret it. That's another thing: Regret. It's something I'm familiar with. Regretting words, actions, thoughts and feelings. Regretting lives and a lack thereof. If anything, those regrets have taught me to value what I gained, those gains either through fate, chance, or pity. I have no shame to say I've loved half-heartedly, and hidden covertly. I've withdrawn a hand from those who would take it and given it to those I would rather break. I am shamed that I have done these things though. If these actions have made me who I am today, and today I am a beast, then today I am a beast. Though I now know I am The Beauty's Beast.
I can only say that I am me.
I am a poet, a little known thinker and an outspoken silence. I write for those I love, those I wish to love, those I have loved, those I will never love. My writing is the largest piece of me that I can entrust to another soul. It's the words my mouth refuses to speak and the actions my body shall never show. Although some may not see me as such, never appreciate this as such, I stand firm, and I shall not break.
There isn't much I could say to one who I do not know, because to know me is a game at best. You may think you have all the leverage to gain something, but then a revelation comes, and your pieces fall away. If you want more, then show me something in return. I've tried to show all that I am, only to be rewarded with the privelage of being a sturdy crutch, never gaining the same support. Now, I rise with the gift I was given, to show my controller exactly what I have to give. So wrong you were, and so wrong you still are. I am not the failure. I am not the one to better; that was, and always will be, you."

And one person deserves the light on this simple page. She knows who she is, the Rose, the Beauty to my Beast, and the Howl to my Wolf. Abby, what can I say to match all the things that you've done? You've dragged me from some hellish places, and kicked my Ass into just the places I needed to be. Cutting your hands all the while, you smoothed out my razor edges, and showed me just what it was like to be Beauty's Beast. I can never thank you enough for the person that you have molded me into. I once thought I could be saved by something just as dark as I was, something that understood me, and never had to make me change, because it didn't even have the will to change itself. You proved me so wrong. You showed me that yes, I had my weak points, yes, I was wrong and right, tender, but needing improvement. You showed me the ups and downs of every part of me. You showed me how to tame my demons, and even showed me how much you loved some of them. It's something no one had tried to do who didn't have them themselves. You know that I can go endlessly on about you, and this page would stretch until the scroll bar was a sliver, but I won't. Everything I have to say to you, I'd rather say in your ear or against your lips. Text and fonts won't strengthen the conviction to my words more than murmuring them to you ever will. The small part of the world that visits these pages will only see a glimpse of you, and I could write things that would make them crave more, but all of those things are only for us. Our secrets, what make us strong, would lose some of that luster when shared. I can only end this by saying that I love you, that I always have, even when you never thought it possible, and I always will. Remember, it was always you I fell asleep to, just like it is now.

Dearest one
Within my arms
Stir not from vigil sweet
Your hair in waves
About my neck
Content in sweetest heat
I kiss your lips
I stir a breath
And smile at the sound
Another kiss
Upon your brow
Within this peace profound

My confident
I need you now
To tell me why to pray
My reason strong
My quiet song
My night within my day
My sunny moon
And silver sun
The pause in endless time
My moment spent
Come back again
Add meaning to my rhyme

Fall in my arms
Your hand in mine
Your lips upon my throat
Speak softly now
No need to move
I know not why or how
You ask again
You linger much
Upon the thoughts I make
I know them not
So why should you
For silence we would break

Forget the days
I hid from you
The coward that I was
I saw my wrong
My joy prolonged
And all simply because
Closure had come
In false disguise
Her lure my heart did take
Such horror now
A broken vow
Your faith I knew I'd break

You withstood doubt
You turned about
Within a shroud of pain
I aided it
I made it fit
To fit your form in vein
I thought I knew
Just what to do
When my world came down on me
How could I turn
To She I'd burn
With a future She'd not see?

A night and more
I stood at the door
That witheld loss and guilt
For what I'd done
The love I'd shunned
The Rose I'd caused to wilt
Now as I lay
Beside that Rose
Amazment seizes me
That I have come
So far along
The Beauty took her Beast