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Lozzie:PHOBIA
Name
Lauren
Age
17
Gender
Female
Location
Great Britain (UK)
Joined date
December 27th, 2006

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About

i'm just all about mental
breakdowns


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[-]A low mood for most of the day
[-]Feelings of guilt
[-]Feelings of worthlessness
[-]Feeling nervous or anxious
[-]Feeling slow and sluggish
[-]Changes in appetite/weight loss or gain
[-]Irritability or agitation
[-]Trouble sleeping or sleeping too much
[-]Decreased libido
[-]Having trouble with concentration or memory
[-]Loss of energy or feeling fatigued
[-]Unexplained physical symptoms
[-]Frequently experiencing breakdowns or crying
[-]Thoughts of suicide or thoughts or wishes of death


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god i miss you

there's someone here who misses you


***

He told everybody goodbye
He had a look in his eye
Like this could be the last time
I knew you were feeling down
I wish that I had been around more
Could I have changed things
Maybe I could have changed things

And it's the rainy days
That mostly remind me


Goodbye friend
I hope you found
The answers you were looking for
Goodbye friend
I don't think that you ever knew
That there was someone here
There is someone here
Who misses you


And you were my biggest fan
Together forever and then
So many things I should've known
You were always there to help me along
And always there to sing my song
I wish I had told you
Man I sure hope I told you

And it's the rainy days
That still remind me
Yeah it's the crazy, crazy days
I need you here


Goodbye friend
I hope you found
The answers you were looking for
Goodbye friend
I don't think that you ever knew
That there was someone here
There is someone here


Selfishly I'm mad at you
For making me feel like this
I wish I could talk to you like I used to
And tell you that sometimes I hate you
For doing this to the people
That loved you so
They look at me like I'm supposed to know
And then I'm told

So thank you for saying goodbye
And letting me know we're alright
I hope that I deserved that

Goodbye friend
I hope you found
Whatever you were looking for
Goodbye friend
I don't think that you ever knew
Goodbye friend
I hope you found
The answers you were looking for
Goodbye friend
I don't think that you ever knew
That there was someone here
There is someone here
Who misses you


Oh i miss you
God i miss you
I miss you

***

My stories are to the left.
My poems are to the left.
My articles are to the left.
My friends are to the left.
My photo's are to the left.

Everything I Own in a Box to the Left

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Lauren's the name, writing's the game.
Well, on here at least.
Seventeen's the age, seven's the act, seventy's the feel.
'Cause I'm just all about cliché's.
Smiles are the norm, depression's the secret.
It's not my fault, it just happened.

***

He woke up from dreaming and put on his shoes
Started making his way past
Two in the morning
He hasn't been sober for days
Leaning now into the breeze
Remembering Sunday, he falls to his knees
They had breakfast together
But two eggs don't last
Like the feeling of what he needs

Now this place seems familiar to him
She pulled on his hand with a devilish grin
She led him upstairs
She led him upstairs
Left him dying to get in


Forgive me, I'm trying to find my calling
I'm calling at night
I don't mean to be a bother
But have you seen this girl?
She's been running through my dreams
And it's driving me crazy, it seems
I'm gonna ask her to marry me


Even though she doesn't believe in love
He's determined to call her bluff
Who could deny these butterflies?
They're filling his gut
Waking the neighbors, unfamiliar faces
He pleads though he tries
But he's only denied
Now he's dying to get inside

Forgive me, I'm trying to find my calling
I'm calling at night
I don't mean to be a bother
But have you seen this girl?
She's been running through my dreams
And it's driving me crazy, it seems
I'm gonna ask her to marry me
The neighbors said she moved away
Funny how it rained all day
I didn't think much of it then
But it's starting to all make sense


Oh, I can see now that all of these clouds
Are following me in my desperate endeavor
To find my whoever, wherever she may be


I'm not coming back
(Forgive me)
I've done something so terrible
I'm terrified to speak
(I'm not calling, I'm not calling)
But you'd expect that from me
I'm mixed up, I'll be blunt
(You're driving me crazy)
Now the rain is just washing you out of my hair
And out of my mind
Keeping an eye on the world
From so many thousands of feet off the ground
I'm over you now
I'm at home in the clouds, towering over your head

I guess I'll go home now
I guess I'll go home now
I guess I'll go home now
I guess I'll go home


***

His name is Paul.
I love him.

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I have myself a little collection of friends. May I list them?
I will anyway.

*Davinia
*Lodz
*Beth
*Nathan
*Bex
*Amy
*Steph
*Jeri
*Jess
*Ellie
*Katie
*John
*AJ

***

Some people laugh, some people cry
Some people live, some people die
Some people run, right into the fire
Some people hide their every desire
But we are the lovers

If you don't believe me
Then just look into my eyes
'Cause the heart never lies


Some people fight, some people fall
Others pretend they don't care at all
If you wanna fight I'll stand right beside you
The day that you fall I'll be right behind you
To pick up the pieces

If you don't believe me
Just look into my eyes
'Cause the heart never lies


Woah

Woah

Another year over, and we're still together
It's not always easy, but I'm here forever

Yeah we are the lovers
I know you believe me
When you look into my eyes
'Cause the heart never lies
'Cause the heart never lies, yeah
Because the heart never lies


***

Conclusion

I'm Lauren.
I'm seventeen.
I have depression.
I like to write.
I like love music.

Bye Bye